School writing. This is the boring stuff i tend to not be as good at, unless it happens to intersect with when i do another type of writing. I feel that it's a reflection of my left brain, and thus tends to come out (initially) disorganized and in need of quite a bit of help. I find that many assignments i receive in school require that not only do i submit to a particular train of thought, but that i also submit to the opinion of the teacher and the structure set forth that, even when we are told, "is not the only way," tends to be the only way that one will be able to get help while doing. I actually consider these blog posts a form of School writing for the most part, since it is mostly me voicing my opinion and (occasionally) in a way that makes sense and is logical. That is to say, I do try and go for structure with these, but i do not often plan out the details or outline my posts, i let flow whatever comes to mind, as close to how it comes out as i can and still make sense. Even some of the posts that are very non-academic in content, to me are a form of practice for academic writing.
Fan Fiction. This is how i exert myself and my ideas for pleasure over worlds that I do not have to create, maintain, or even follow all the rules of. This is how i borrow to introduce ideas that I like on a table, so i can use or reuse them for other writings such as personal stories or poems, lore and mythology. Many times i do admit i write fan fiction solely for making a slash pairing, which I like to read, and others like to write, so why not share my perversion with others? If i write for myself, i should be allowed to write what i want about other peoples worlds, since i think about it enough (after all, Taito is very yummy)
Thoughts are posts like this. The let me rant, express my inner thinks, and my emotions. Most of this is done in poetry, like my earlier posts, and if people understand them that's pretty cool, if not oh well. Many of the longer forms of this writing will never get finished (this is only getting finished because i was asked if i blogged, and provided a link here) like a post i have about the odd energy well at the funeral of my great aunt. To me, this is my most personal writing, but also the only writing i do to share. Oddly enough, I am more scared of sharing my academic writing that has very little to do with my thoughts and insides than my personal writing where i write myself out in text
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"I Am" - January 28th 2009
I am Me: a Paradox of time and humanity who resides here an individual in a conformist society.
I am One who resists, and One who conforms; One who finds Truth, and One who Lies.
I am One who believes in Innocence, yet destroys the Naïve; One who creates Love, and Destroys it ruthlessly.
I am One who Loves, but is no longer a Lover; One who Hates, but not by Choice.
I am One who has found God, but doubts Her power; One who is Saved, yet Cannot be so.
I am One, but am also Two; One who has seen the Past, and fears the Future.
I am One who wishes for Fur, and wants to create Wings; One who lies in wait for Myself to be revealed.
I am One who harbors Fear, but harvests Courage; One who sees the Beyond, but will be hesitant for my Time.
I am One who is not limited by Sex, by Gender, but falls into norms; One who does not let go, no matter how many times He hurts me.
I am One who feels the Fist of Power, but knows the sting of Weakness; One who warms Souls, and breaks the Auras of those who spread hate.
I am One, Mateless and Alone; One who creates his own yolk to shoulder a Burden alone.
I am Me: without my Identity, without my Mind, without my Soul: I cannot be.
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